I know I have no real reason to worry yet. I had some spotting the day my period was due and the day after but it was so minimal. I know there are others suffering with things that are scarier and harder. But my anxiety seems to be getting the better of me. I find myself saying I'm going to lose this one too almost every day.

Why can't I just be positive? Why can't I just relax till I have something to worry about? Why do i have to feel scared to get attached? Why can't it just be easy and breeze like when I had my first child 11 years ago?

When I see others with dark lines I twinge thinking why aren't mine that dark? When I see others struggling with fears of loss or threatened loss why do I feel like that's going to be me?

I'm sorry this sounds so depressing but my anxiety definitely has me by the short hair. I can't wait till my appointment Monday then my blood work results Tue. It just can't come fast enough.