Trying to get pregnant should be easy. So why is it so hard?

As much as it pains me to say this, I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. After a year and a half of trying to get pregnant, I cringe when I see pregnancy announcements.

It's so hard to be genuinely happy for someone when I feel like I've worked so hard for the same goal for so long. I shouldn't feel this way towards another woman for being pregnant. Especially when I don't know what she went through to get her BFP.

But it's so so hard not to feel this way. It's not fair. There's people getting pregnant without even trying. After all, everyone always tells you that it's easier to get pregnant after the first child.

At first, you feel hopeful and excited because you stopped taking your birth control. It shouldn't take that long. Right? But another month goes by with no luck.

Every month it's the same cycle. Period, ovulation, disappointing negative pregnancy test, period again. On repeat like a broken record.

Hiding the fact that you and your spouse are trying to get pregnant from family is hard. But once the secret is out, the questions don't stop. "When's the next one?" And anytime you say you have news to share, the first thing out of their mouth is "Are you pregnant?".

You may think you're being harmless asking a woman questions like this. But you don't see how many times she gets asked this.

It hurts. It stings. They don't see the shed tears from yet another negative test. They don't feel your constant heart ache and long for something that you've wanted for so long.

I snapped at my husband the other day for asking me "Why aren't you pregnant yet?", but he wasn't trying to be rude. He was only asking because he wants the same thing. After all, he's doing his part. So what gives?

This journey is far from easy for some of us. It's exhausting. It's tiring. It's heartbreaking.

Here's to hoping this year brings a BFP to those of us who have tried for quite some time and those of us who struggle silently. This is our year. 💝