I miss you so so much😭 I cant even explain how depressed I've been lately. It's been almost a year since I found out I was pregnant with you which means it's been almost a year since i found out i lost you... i spend most nights wanting to cry because all i can think of is you. I'm getting a teddy bear in the mail to have to try and help me handle the loss of you. I just... i haven't been the same since you left me. We made it to that first ultrasound... I smiled when i finally saw you because I knew you were perfect. But when the doctor said you didnt have a heartbeat, I felt my whole world stop and start crumbling around me. My heart felt like it was shattering. That's because you were my whole world. I dont feel the same anymore. I never got to hold you or keep photos of you. I'm so lost without you here sweetie. I miss you more than you'll ever understand. But we'll meet again someday. I love you so much my angel.

Love,

Your momma