My husband and I tried for baby #3 for two years with no luck. We literally tried everything. We are both healthy according to the three fertility doctors we saw. I have been taking ubiquinol as I have heard great stories about it. Especially for cases like mine, which is secondary infertility. Our plan was for me to take the ubiquinol for at least 3 months consecutively, and then give it one more shot. But, since we are currently on a TTC break, I have realized that financially at this time we wouldn’t be able to afford a third child. We really never could. Also, my boys are 8 and 5. So, the thought of starting over does make me nervous. I’m also about to turn 36, which also makes me nervous (risks). I told my husband that, things would really have to improve financially for us to even give it one more shot. But, even if they improve in the next few months, there’s all the other factors that leave me undecided if we should go for a third one last time, or not.

I also have a demanding job, but it’s from home, and it’s a contract job, so I don’t have maternity leave. I would have to just quit to take a “maternity leave”. And we can’t afford that. If I don’t work, we only have one income, which is very tough for a family of 5.

Life is also pretty darn busy with our two boys. The balance game is real when it comes to my boys, work, marriage, family, friends.

But, then I see baby videos of my boys or baby pics, and my heart melts and I get baby fever. Maybe I just need to get over it and move on from this baby thing, or maybe I should give it one last try. Im scared, bc whatever I decide, it determines the route of the rest of my life. It’s like I am living a nightmare with all this indecision.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.