Marriage

Hey all! I feel like I need to let my feelings put and I am questioning myself about how I am and am I a bad wife. So I’ve been married 6 months. Together 4 years and we have a 1 year old together. I love him more than words can say but... our marriage is just full of arguments. We barely have sex anymore, everything I do and say is wrong. Since having my little boy I’ve put on a bit more weight I’m not big I’m a size 10 I used to be an 8. I hate my body I feel horrible in it. I try and find time when I’m not working to go to the gym but it’s so hard. I am a hair stylist so I’m working around my husbands hours and then when I’m home I’m doing house work and looking after our son. I barely find time to make myself feel good anymore I mean I would love to sit and do all my hair and makeup but I don’t have chance. He always comes home and makes comments that he fancies me with my makeup on. Or he will see a bigger woman and make comments on her weight yet I’m probably no different I’m size. He always makes comments and when I say to him it makes me feel shit he always says he can’t say anything right and I take everything wrong all the time. I just want to feel good about myself, I want him to come home and say I look beautiful no matter what. But I can’t even tell him how I feel. Please say I’m over reacting? He isn’t going to find me attractive being like this and having no time for makeup but my priority is my son and making sure he has my attention. Then to top it off I’m 23 and struggle with endometriosis, I have to have a catheter quiet often as I can’t wee when I’m in pain. He makes comments and says he sounds selfish but he doesn’t cope well when I’m poorly because he just wants an easy life and me being ill makes his life harder.