I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, but I need to get it off my chest and talk about it so its it not the right place, let me know and point me in the right direction please..

I've had 3 miscarriages. I've been trying to have a baby for 4 years.

My last pregnancy my bestfriend was also pregnant and still is to this day. We had the same due date. And as shes sitting there not even wanting the child shes finding out the gender of the baby and feeling its movements and shes getting the baby bump and just getting everything I've ever wanted and it HURTS so bad, I want to be happy for her and all that other stuff but it is so hard to even want to keep talking to her. I'm literally hurting everywhere. She is my best friend I'm supposed to be there for her and be happy for her and I cant.

It's like trying your absolute hardest and yet other people not even trying and winning the race. I just dont even know anymore... I feel like such a horrible person. But I dont know what else to do.. besides smile and nod.. 😓

If anyone else has gone threw this and your reading it, tips on how to help get threw it and to stop feeling so empty and broken?

Thank you.

I'm also so sorry for anybody's loss. My thoughts are going out to any of you. 💛