Recently just broke up with a “boy” and the last words he said to me was we fucked outside before why can’t you give me head outside” and I know I did that to myself allowing myself to be degraded but I was tryna build myself up only for you to tell me that I’m basically nothing but a quick out door fuck I got upset and told him I was done and there is plenty more disrespectful things he have said to me after I broke it off he begged me every day to take him back even till right now as I type this and I told him no I want nothing to do with him he wants to be friends and even though I love him I want nothing to do with him friends or not but now I don’t know what to do I want to learn to love myself and know how to just enjoy me but I don’t know how and where to start and I feel bad about what I did to him he keeps asking me to go to the movies for one last “good thing for him to make up” but I keep saying no because if you wanted to be good for me why couldn’t you do that while we were together but anyways what should I do?? Am I going about Th is the right way??