i feel like such a failure as a mother.

my pediatrician told me that my daughter has separation anxiety, and said that’s because i hardly put her down and she still sleeps in the same room as me. she told me to start sleep training her and using the “ cry it out “ method. she told me if i dont do that, itll ruin her in the long run and she will be spoiled.

well, tonight is the night i tried it. i did her nightly routine and then put her in her crib, in her own room. she started crying, and i just went downstairs and watched over the baby monitor. it went on for 10 minutes, which felt like forever. i was crying myself and my husband said “ just go get her, dont do this to either of you. the pediatrician isn’t always right “ and right then and there, i ran and go got my baby. i came back downstairs and laid her on my chest and instantly within 5 minutes, she was peacefully asleep.

i just don’t know how to do it. i can’t just let her cry. she usually sleeps in a cosleeping bassinet ( its her own space, its just attached to the bed where she can see us still ) and she does great but my pediatrician said shes going to end up spoiled still. i feel like such a failure. this is my first baby, i just dont know what to do. 😭 i dont try to hold her all the time, but i love her. i tried putting her in her own room, i just cant let her cry like that.

she is 5 months old btw.