I'm soo heart broken.

I know I cant do this the "normal" way and my morals won't allow me to do it in other ways. We financially cant go through <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> or <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>.

At the beginning of this I never thought I would be the "issue" and still dont necessarily think it's me knowing he has extremely low sperm count.

I have 2 children (teens) from a previous marriage and one miscarriage from "open relationship" situation. I'm older, my cycle is changing, my husband wants one child of "his own". I would love to be pregnant and have one or even two more (twin situation). But I know it's not going to happen as much as I wish it would.

I just wish and pray it would be a miracle rainbow baby.