Ladies, motherhood is HARD but doing it alone is even harder. Every day in and out I have my son counting on me and me only. Let me tell you my situation...

So my bf and I were going our separate ways when we conceived. We both moved back home as we had decided to end our lease to our apartment (before knowing of pregnancy). Once we discovered we were pregnant we thought it would still be a good idea to go home and save money and get our financial situation worked out. The time apart allowed us to actually grow closer and we decided to continue the relationship.

Fast forward we have our son and he’s staying here with me and my mom besides ONE night out of the week he goes with my bf and his mom to their place.. he’s 2 months now and we just started doing this and I’ve definitely needed a break. I expressed to my bf that I’m extremely exhausted doing this pretty much myself and I wanted us to get a place together so we could be a family. We apply to a place but we’re denied on account of his credit score which is whatever.. my complaint is before we even decided to get our place we had the option to go to my dads to get our feet on the ground. He has 3 bedrooms upstairs he doesn’t even use and it would be perfect, especially being rent free! My bf was all for it originally then I got cold feet bc I didn’t want us to become complacent there and appreciated the help I received from my mom.

Now since we were denied the apartment I thought maybe we should just go to my dads for a while so I could get help and we could all be under the same roof. But it seems like he has so many excuses as to why he wants to just keep doing what we’re doing and not move there. I’m just torn bc I want us to be together but I’m getting to the point where I might as well do this on my own. I’m just so tired. He gets to work, sleep and come and go as he pleases. Meanwhile I’m not working and having to tend to OUR son every single day. I’m just so sleepy and wish things were different. He says he’ll be home late from work which won’t help me but if I knew he was coming home that night it would be better than knowing I would be alone each night like I currently am.

Idk what to do...