So yesterday we had our third fetal echo. The second looked better and we had a plan. Unfortunately the plan has now changed. Seems our baby's heart still has the coaractationo of the aorta. Instead of delivering at McMaster, a 40 minute drive away, we're now delivering at Mt Sinai in Toronto (at least an hr away) so if baby really needs surgery they can take her across the street to Sick Kids right away. And baby is still breech, with the umbilical cord wrapped around her neck.

So the original plan to give birth vaginally and with minimal drugs (I had been mentally preparing for) now is a confirmed c section at 39weeks, and I'm 36w+2d.

Which means I'll be recuperating at Mt Sinai while my baby is across the street, either for a day or two of observation or longer if she needs the surgery.

I know they said I'll be able to visit even if I'm not discharged (they're connected underground), I'm just not sure how I'm going to manage.

We still haven't finished getting things ready and my husband has an exam he's taking in two weeks that he needs to pass.

Our parents don't even live near us, thankfully we have a great circle of friends that will help. But this whole new plan, and now most likely not seeing my baby is going to be really hard.

I can't sleep and just needed to put it all out there

If anyone has any suggestions on how to be with missing your baby and csection advice, I would really appreciate it

Thanks.