Don’t mind me. I just need to whine for a moment.

I KNOW that pumping is what’s best for my baby and family situation right now. But I’ve been exclusively pumping basically since Addie came home from the hospital (going on 7 month) and, man, am I just tired today. This morning my alarm went off and my only thought was “I can’t wait until I don’t pump anymore to get my 30 minutes of sleep back”

I’m just tired. And now that my husband works mornings, my am pump is at like 5am with the constant worry of “I hope she sleeps for my full half hour”

Then, I don’t know if this is normal, but after pumping I’m exhausted- like that itself saps my energy. Then I get to go back to being teacher or mom or whatever role I had to take a 30 min break from.

In the same breath, I get anxious about the thought of starting her on formula because it’s too expensive, she doesn’t like it, health benefits of breast milk.... whatever the reason. I also feel proud I’ve made it this long. And honestly, I think I want to at least make it through flu season. My original goal was 6 months and I did it! I know I can persevere!

But today I’m tired. And I really wanted that extra 30 min of sleep.