I’m April 2019, I had a pretty traumatic loss at 24 weeks.

So, when I found out I was pregnant again, my doctor stopped my lexapro (anti anxiety/anti depressant). I’ve been on the max dose of Wellbutrin since 2014. They put me on Zoloft to replace the Lexapro. Made me nauseous,lethargic and just blah. Started Prozac. Made me suicidal for the first time in my life. I was told to stop the Prozac. Suicidal feelings are lingering.

Husband is in the army, I met him in Korea (I’m Canadian, he’s American). I moved to the states with him. Been waiting on visa for 2 years; I can’t drive, I can’t leave the u.s. We just moved from Missouri to georgia in December. He’s away for three months, back May 1. Then he leaves in September for 9 months. I’m 27 weeks with our first child, if it lives.

I feel so alone, hopeless and just so sad. I feel like this isn’t supposed to be my life.