So my husband cheated on me.

While he was at work he was searching for women.

Claiming he was busy.

Now that he has been caught or whatever he tries to "sext" me like was doing with other women while hes at work.

Now don't get me wrong, i sexted him too then so it wasn't like I wasn't offering it.

He just wanted a different woman or something

I know he isn't doing anything anymore from what I can see he has started doing everything a good man will do

And I can see what hes doing.

But I'm not trying to look I'm just aware I can.

Not once have I found a lie or anything in months.

But my problem is

Now hes trying to sex me at work.

Is it wrong of me to not want to do it at all.

It feels dirty to me now.

Knowing that's how he talked to other women.

Idk all in all I hate his actions.

But I love him.

Its just bullshit I have to deal with this.

I tell you what I will not get in another relationship again. I know you've heard it before.

But I cant stress this enough, I've given this man every part of me and I will never get hurt like this again!

Some people say

Well a real man will love you right

But I haven't met ONE decent man in my life.

NOT ONE.

(We have talked and we do go to counseling) its just I am stuck in this

I don't want to leave but I Also don't want to be with him

Laying in bed at night feeling numb when he touches me, knowing he touched them like that.

I'm miserable either way, I hav eno friends or family its just me him and our kids.

And apparently he didn't want to be here either. Now he does but I don't know who he is anymore.