I have felt like a completely awful mother since yesterday, and he isn't even here.. I'm 29 weeks.

Yesterday I was sent to the Labor and delivery floor for fluid checking and apparently while monitoring me they seen i was having intense, close together contractions. I didn't know, i couldn't feel them. They did a bunch of tests and my fluid came back as discharge from bv.. which can cause preterm labor. I didn't know I had it either because I didn't have any symptoms.

Anyways, I was there for several hours and i had about 3 different nurses my entire stay. Each one told me the same thing. "You're only having contractions because you don't drink enough water and you dehydrated yourself and risked him coming early." Except I do drink alot of water, or I thought I did. 4 bottles isn't enough and I'm stupid for thinking it. They kept pointing to the McDonald's milkshake cup i had brought in with me because I had stopped on my way there to get it... I was having a craving. I don't drink them all the time. They told me to eat healthier, I do. I'm 115 pounds. I've gained 20 pounds this pregnancy to try and get my weight above average or average. My OB says I'm doing great and I wasn't at risk for gestational diabetes.

Anyways after all of the comments about my unhealthy cravings, dehydrating my baby, and not acknowledging I had bv, i was an emotional wreck. I feel like an awful person. I have tried my absolute best this pregnancy and it still isn't enough.

Despite my sob story, they were able to slow the contractions down. My son is measuring ahead, and i am on medication for bv.