I have never had an orgasm/ finished/ cummed. I get so so close, I don’t know how to get.... there. Please help!!!!

My boyfriend can finish easily before me, I start getting there but that turns him on so he cums before I get there.

I masturbate and have found how to start getting there, but after a few seconds of the same amazing sensation, i don’t get that explosive feeling that I’ve been told it’s like.

I’ve wondered if I have already orgasmed, but been very quiet, as I am not very vocal in bed anyway. But wondering if I have goes to show that I haven’t 😩

It’s really getting me and my boyfriend down, he jut wants to give me what he gets when he finishes! And he also worries that he’s not good enough ☹️