Decided to share this picture here.

I was with this man for 5 years...

We have a 2 year old son together and we haven't been together for almost 2 years. Hes been in a relationship with another girl....he cheated one me and left me for her. As soon as he meet her on his job he left me... he told me he'll comeback when he will be committed. She even knew of me..

Our son was only 5 months.

They just moved in together now he barely gets his son anymore. Almost like she has control over him. She has a 7 year old. We just dont talk anymore.

He use to be my bestfriend we always joke and play. Planned our marriage together our future kids and everything. We did everything with each other. Now hes just a stranger I had a kid with.

I was looking through old photos and this one made me get in my feelings but smile alil. He use to take me out to the causeway and we would stay fishing out there all day. Of course before we had a baby. I was with him since I was17. I'm now 23. So we got together young.

It's like after I got pregnant after 2yrs he changed...I always thought it was me. I always questioned myself like what did I do wrong. But I'm over it now and at peace. I dont force him to get his son. I just thought it was a wonderful picture and it brings back so many memories.

I'll be moving out of state with just me and my son. Apart of me wants him to say " I love you and I miss you so much. I want my family back. Lets move and start over, and try harder for US"...but another part of me just wants him to be friends because the hurt he caused me. But I know this will be a long stressful but exciting journey for my son and I. I just never thought his dad wouldnt be apart of our journey.

Sometimes he acts like he misses me when he gives me hugs and a light kiss on my cheek when he does get him.

But I quickly remind myself, it's all games.

So here I am a young single momma that doesn't know what the hell shes doing but she's a trying momma.