Hope is going away

I haven’t had my period since Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a>. I took two pregnancy test both came out negative. From the months of October to December I was on birth control the last month which was December I was forgetting to take my pill. I guess I just hate being disappointed by a negative test me and my husband have been trying for three years now and the only reason I started birth control was to regulate my period. I’m just so over it guess.