so i went to see my boyfriend over the weekend, and obviously things went down- which included kissing. he didnt tell me he was still ill until after but obviously i wasnt mad or anything because a little cold couldn’t kill me.

well, the next day i felt awful in myself- which i assumed was because my period is due next week. but then yesterday (tuesday) i felt terrible. my throat felt blocked up and i couldn’t swallow without it killing, i had awful headaches, was so tired, sneezing constantly, and was just not myself. i had no appetite but my mum managed to get me to have some saveloy and chips. i had a little bit but the dogs got most of it as i felt really sick. i went to bed early and 10 minutes after laying in ben trying to get to sleep i went downstairs and my food came back up in the toilet. i could not stop crying for hours because it was such an awful day and i felt unbearably ill. i just couldnt take it.

i had made plans for my boyfriend to come over for a bit after school the next day (him to come over wednesday) but then i text him tuesday night saying that i threw up and couldnt stop crying. i said i wasnt coming in wednesday. he was asleep, so he replied in the morning- saying ‘oh baby im so sorry, am i still coming over?’.

i said i’ll have to see how i am later. throughout the day, whenever he asked how i was, he also followed it up asking if hes coming over. finally i said:

and then i stood up for myself

(friday is VALENTINES DAY and he was the one who kept going on about coming to mine for movies that day!!!!!)

he said sorry once i stood up for myself but ive tried to break up with him before- but then he was telling me how much he changed for me and the next day at school he was being all sweet and stuff.

i’ve asked for a break (as we have a week off school), should i just go through with it?