Clock ticking

So lately I've had an overwhelming need to have a second baby. I am currently divorcing my sons father, focusing on building a business and being a full time mom. My soon ex husband admitted his mistakes causing a divorce, we get on reasonably well now but I cannot stay anymore. I thought I'd be overwhelmed by having to do all myself, providing for us and instead this happened! No partner, no time, no sex 🙄, and here I am reading pregnancy books, choosing names, tempted to buy a newborn outfit! Complete baby fever even though I probably have spider webs up my v by now from the lack of intimacy 🤔 Am I mad?? Tell me some inspiring stories, who's life transformed into a thriving family when it looked like they're just not born to be in a loving relationship?