I feel lost.. like I don't really have anyone to talk to about this. My husband is amazing and we have discussed it, but I don't know what I REALLY want to do. I have a wonderful 3 year old son. And I'm in a battle with myself if we'd like to try for another. I'm not sure if my body is even capable of having another one honestly, as I've been diagnosed with PCOS.

I know this post is all over the place, but I have a strong feeling like I would like another baby. I want my son to have a sibling because I cherish all mine so much. My first pregnancy was really rough and unplanned so I didn't get the pampering and the specialness of a first pregnancy. Sometimes I would like to experience this all over again with my husband and have that "special" pregnancy, and fall in love with another baby all over again.

But the other side of me is really against it. I experienced depression for the first couple years, gained a lot of weight that I can't get off, and there are pros to just having one child

I want to cry. I don't know if I want to just go ahead and try or try to get "my body back" and just enjoy my little guy and the sleep I get and the type of freedom you get with only one .

Does anyone else feel this? Feel crazy?

Ugh .