You see so many times that “SAHMs have it worse because *insert reason here*” or working moms have it harder because *insert reason here.” I worked after my first was born and it was horrible I missed so much with my daughter. She said her first word while I was at work. She took her first steps while I was at work. I missed a lot and it was awful. I had my second baby 10 weeks ago and I’m a SAHM now and it’s so lonely. My husband is out of town for work, he’s been gone since Sunday (it’s now Wednesday) and won’t be back until early Saturday morning. He’s in a different time zone and he’s ahead of us so he’s in bed before it’s really even that late here. So now I’ve put both kids to bed and I’m sitting in the bath listening to Doc McStuffins because I forgot to shut the tv off before i got in. Alls I want to do is talk to my husband. I want him here sitting on the bathroom floor talking with me while I take a bath. But I still forget that I’m not working anymore and I get feelings of dread that I have to get up for work tomorrow. The point is, being a parent is hard. I love my kids more than life it’s self and that’s why I made the choice to stay home with them but by the 3rd meltdown before lunch and realizing I haven’t washed my hair in 4 days. I wonder if I made the right choice. Today has just been hard.