Hi ladies. Why is it that everything feels like a symptom when you want it so badly??

I'm 9dpo and on paper everything is "looking promising". We BD the day before O (confirmed with OPK and BBT), my temps after O were steady and around 8dpo my BBT rose again indicating it may become triphasic if it is sustained. It dropped only slightly today and is still higher than the first few days proceeding O (and well above the coverline).

My next period is scheduled to start on Monday, which also happens to be my 33rd birthday.

Normally before my period, I begin getting cramps a week before as well as painfully sore breasts and legs. This time, I'm noticing my breasts don't hurt at all, in fact I'm feeling pretty great outside of more tired lately, foggy, and cramps that don't feel like my normal PMS cramps. Today I had a slight headache as well.

Could my lack of symptoms be a symptom? I took a test last night but it was a BFN. I know it was too early and at night and with an IC but I don't plan on testing again until 12dpo. I'm trying to reason with myself to not get my hopes up, so any stories you have to share about..

Lack of symptoms as a symptom?

Getting BFN 8dpo only to get a BFP later?

Triphasic charts?

How to recover if I get a BFN for my birthday?

Anything worth sharing just drop it below