Having a hard time with accepting that everyone wants to throw not 1 but 2 baby showers.. My husband and I got married last year, and this is his first baby and his families first grandchild. My children’s father (yes, all the same dad) made have fears of baby showers cause he ruined my

First child’s. I have 3 kids have only had 1 baby shower for my first and I feel guilty having another. Last January before I threw out EVERYTHING baby related because I was single for 2 plus years so at the time I didn’t foresee any kids. So here I am now, 28 weeks pregnant and nothing. I’ve been buying baby stuff as I go cause I’m scared no ones going to show up or buy anything cause of how many kids I have... sorry for the long post but I needed a place to vent ☹️