Okay I don’t know if this is allowed but I need input, I want to start blogging a little and this is my first piece. So please critique but don’t do it in a negative way

When Levi first showed me this picture it was easy to point out everything that was wrong with it, and me.

My hair was sticking out in every direction but also matted to my head

My eyes were darker then they had ever been before

I had left trash on my night stand and a dirty plate on my bed

I had failed to put sheets on my bed and pillowcases on my pillow

And the worst of all. I had broken the number one rule, I fell asleep with my newborn and nobody was even home to keep watch

72 hours of being a mother and I had already put my child in danger

72 hours of being a parent and I already wasn’t the kind of mom I’d hoped to be. You know the kind that you see on your news feed with their perfectly posed children, perfectly clean house, and somehow they are so put together. That’s the mom I so desperately wanted to be, and I felt the farthest from it. For the longest time I longed to be perfect, but that’s not what motherhood is.

Motherhood is hair sticking in every direction because you haven’t had time to brush your hair between feeding and changing your baby while trying to catch up on sleep

Motherhood is dark circles under your eyes from waking up at various times of the night to tend to your child’s needs, or not sleeping at all just to watch and make sure they breathe

Motherhood is having dirty dishes and trash pile up because you’re just enjoying your new little person

Motherhood is not having the time or really even the energy to change the sheets over and over again as your little one is having blowouts or spitting up everywhere

Motherhood is holding your new baby in your arms trying so hard not to fall asleep but succumbing to the exhaustion

I am so appreciative that I have this picture now, it’s one frozen moment of my journey into becoming a mom. And although I don’t have everything together I am turning out to be an amazing mom. And that’s all I’ve strived to be.