I feel bad. I recently discovered wedding photos of a friend on social media who I didn't even know was wedding. And before that, two of our common friends wedded, I knew about the wedding but wasn't invited.

Damn it hit me hard. I understand why I wasn't invited as I didn't help with the preparations and the past months, I haven't been going to their meetings every week which start at 7pm because obviously that time ain't conducive for me and baby. I just feel left out. Then I thought, they are slightly younger, and just getting married. They have no kids. There is no way my life now can fit with theirs. Probably soon it will as they get kids but as for now, am a third forgotten wheel. I need friends who have kids who don't suggest meeting at late night hours. Because currently I have just 2 friends left. Who also have no kids but at least they make meeting easier. Damn where did my youth go.