I’m sitting here holding my 9mo, breastfed, mamas boy... crying. I’m not sure what to do. I love my husband I really do, he does so much for us and has been depressed because he has not been able to get much work this winter. We own our own business. I do the paperwork and have been working on getting our contractors license and recent LLC. It’s not much, but it has been working. I am a stay at home mom, I take care of the books, I take care of a lot of things. I take care of this precious baby boy that I love so much... I am sitting here crying because we have been so slow that I might have to get a job. Don’t get me wrong I’m not “lazy” and “don’t want a job,” I am terrified of leaving my baby boy. He has been exclusively breastfeed, I’m scared of pumping because it hurts more than breastfeeding. I know stupid... I am so scared to miss out on things... He doesn’t fall asleep without me... The list goes on and on. My husband doesn’t want me to get a job because he says it’s his job to take care of us financially. I love that about him, but it’s not realistic especially during the winter months. I just don’t know what to do... I know the job I used to work at would probably hire me back but I was only making $11/hr and they probably wouldn’t start me back there. I have nothing for my resume because I have not worked in 2 years, couple of miscarriages in between. I actually wouldn’t mind working a few days a week, but my little man??? I’m just confused, stressed, and worried... How do I leave my baby?