i’m soooooo grateful and thankful that people at work are having a sort of “baby shower” for me. tomorrow is my last day before i take leave. i’ll be 37 weeks with my twins next week and i just don’t think i can work any longer lol.

anyway, is it weird that i’m having mixed feelings about the “baby shower” idk. i love my work family a lot but it was supposed to be a surprise but i accidentally found out about it. i just don’t like attention being drawn to me or anything like that. i feel so awkward and uncomfortable. but i feel like that makes me a bad person for having those feelings even though i’m super duper grateful for it. idk if that makes sense. :( i just don’t know how to react in those situations. is this a normal feeling or am i just being dumb?