Ectopic pregnancy

I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant on Sunday, on Monday I started to experience some light bleeding and cramping. By Tuesday I was admitted to the hospital because they thought i may have an ectopic pregancy, which was true and today I got methotrexate. I am now home and it feels so wrong, when I was last home I had so much joy and excitement and now I feel so broken. I had a baby inside me and I couldn’t protect it. It’s so weird going from so high with happiness to feeling heart broken. I don’t know the point of my post I just feel so down and I don’t know how to find hope. I’m 23 and this was my first pregnancy, we have been trying for 6 months and it finally happened.