Today is a really bad day. Maybe is the hormones as my first “normal period” after Kaiden was born is here. We lost him January 11th at 18 weeks due to Down Syndrome, hydrops, cystic hygroma and a hole in his heart. Today is such an awful day... almost as bad as the first couple days after I got home from the hospjtal. I miss him, I feel empty, lost, alone. I have great support from my family and friends... but I feel alone in a room full of people. Even the pumping I’ve done to donate to my local milk bank isn’t helping and the lord knows it was helping me sooo much to imagine all those NICU babies thriving thanks to the milk Kaiden left behind...

Today is a shitty ass day and I’m not sure how to pull myself out of the hole 👼🏻😭🥺