I've been doing so well. No major panic attacks in a while (childhood abuse). But idk. My husband asked if I wanted to get sushi instead of him cooking dinner like he was planning (I'm usually the cook because I'm a bomb cook). I said I wasnt in the mood for sushi (usually a favorite) and he said ok hell cook then.

But suddenly I feel like I'm a horrible person and cant breathe and getting negative self talk I'm trying to use my coping skills but it's not working. I feel like I should cook something and if I dont something bad is gonna happen but if I do something bad is gonna happen.

My husband is kind, loving, and wonderful. I know logically that itll be fine. But for some reason im feeling like dads walking in the door drunk again. Like I'm going to get screamed at and beaten.

Anyone have any other tips to help? Been through similar? I domt know how to stop feeling scared and dont want my husband to come home to me a mess and sobbing in an hour. He came from an abusive household too and I dont want him to feel like he did anything wrong because it was a normal text exchange. It wasnt even a rough day at work today.