I am literally feeling numb and about to be kicked out of my parents house. I did some stupid mistakes and my parents think I am hurting them purposefully even though I am not even trying too. I do some shitty stuff but not to hurt anyone. I have dark thoughts and I feel worthless and I hate myself even more. Why do I do some shit I don't know. I am feeling sad but can't talk at all. I am just waiting for the rain or whatever to hit me in the face. If I consider death as a way to just remove all that pain to all the people I loved am I right? I tried to be faking that I am okay but I seriously can't take anything anymore.