Scared to have sex

i’ve had sex before, lost my virginity 5 years ago and I have had my share of one night stands, friends with benefits and what not. But, i’ve never had sex with a guy I have had feelings for. I had a really toxic relationship for 5 years and that guy made me feel like nothing. made me feel like I couldn’t do anything right and made me feel like I am bad at sex. I don’t think i’m bad at sex but fuck I don’t know it’s been so long.

There’s a guy I want to sleep with but i’m so god damn afraid. I don’t know how to get over it. & this guy...he’s goooood. so I don’t wanna embarrass myself. i don’t know y’all...i’m so afraid😭