Possible 3rd loss

Hello I have no clue how to feel. My husband and I have been trying for our second child for a super long time. We had our first beautiful baby girl who is now 9 years old when we were young.

In feb 2018, we were sooo excited when we found out we were pregnant. But it ended when they could not find a heartbeat resulting in a d&c at about 9 weeks

In oct 2019 we were excited we were pregnant with a baby boy but for medical reasons had to end the pregnancy at 20 weeks.

Now January 2020. Excited to find out we have a chance to again. We went to our ultrasound appointment and all the tech seen was a sac. I should be 8 weeks preg. But no yolk no fetal pole nothing. The lady said maybe it’s to early and I’m eariler then I thought but I know when I ovulate because I took a test.(Jan 3). I know that when I go back to the doctor they are gonna tell me it’s not a good pregnancy but how do I cope with this. Now i have to have a third d&c.I have no clue how to feel. I simply give up on having another baby. I’m trying to stay positive til my next appointment when they retest but it’s beyond hard for me. Any suggestions