We have been trying to get pregnant for 3 years. We have never used protection. During the past 5 years we found out that I have endometriosis. I had the laparoscopic surgery to have it burned off and we continued to BD every chance we could. Some months we did the deed 15 out of 30 days. Still no baby. Last year I did clomid for 3 cycles. Still no baby. Dr increased it to 150mg and there were over 23 cysts on my ovaries and some ruptured. SO MUCH PAIN, and yet, still no baby. I'm back on clomid again 50mg CD 5-9. Everytime I get on glow I get upset and jealous of everyone getting a BFP or when a coworker announces a pregnancy I intentionally avoid them bc looking at them makes me want to cry. My hubby and I do not want to do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. I just need a lot of uplifting right now. I literally just feel like giving up on my dream. The one thing I've ever wanted was to be a mother, and i feel like it will never happen. The clomid gives me headaches and makes me emotional, so I'm sure that's where all this is coming from, but i just need to get these words out. I feel like if I share these feelings with my husband it will discourage him as well if that makes any sense....I just need to know that I'm not alone and this isnt the worst thing in the world to happen.