Not baby hungry, I just want my toddler

Does it happen to others that it’s not even about wanting to conceive again, and be pregnant, you just miss the baby you could have had?

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about my baby. I miscarried a bit over three years ago, still in my first trimester.

We are still TTC ever since, and I’ll be happy when we get pregnant . But I’m not baby hungry, or really yearning to get pregnant. If anything, I’m actually pretty content with my career, and love that my life in general is chill and quiet.

But I really yearn that baby that I lost. Knowing that I’d have a little toddler running around the house, playing with our dog, dancing with me when I’m singing in the kitchen. I imagine a blonde little guy, similar to the baby photos of my husband, or a sweet girl with dark, curly hair, like me when I was little.

Like I said, I like my life, and I’m pretty happy. I remember after my miscarriage, I felt that I’d never be happy again. So, I want to bring some hope and tell you that you can live a meaningful life and be happy.

But that doesn’t miss you won’t yearn for that little you didn’t get to hold and raise.