I'm 13 and I've had depression for a while but it hit me in 7th grade and it got worse from there. I started beginning to feel suicidal in 8th grade around in the middle of September of last year I attempted sucide for the first time. All my life I've been treated horribly made fun of and bullied. And it went down hill from there. Therapy helped but it was too expensive so we had to stop. On November 13th we created a safety plan for me then in January 3rd I started having panic attacks 2 or 3 times every week. However I was clean for a month of self harm but now attempted it tonight and I've cut myself before too. I'm feeling severely depressed and I'm on antidepressants but they're helping only a little bit. I feeling like I have no one to talk to and that. I have no true friends or anybody who cares about me. My parents don't want to help me even though my school counselor tried to talk them in doing somerhing, and I'm lost. I don't know what else to do. I've tried everything. I feel like if I left the world then all my pain and problems would be over. I'm in so much pain. I go to school fighting everyday the feeling that I have. But I'm tired of feeling like crap. I'm tired of feeling sad depressed because I shouldn't be but I am. ❤😥😫