Pregnant and broken..

Lisa • Son 05/2016. Baby number 2 due 10/05/20.

I've always been a little lazy.. Left things out, ran errands at the last minute etc. But I still did what needed to be done and I still went to work and school etc.

Husband and I had our son and I felt sad often, our marriage was in a bad place and I was constantly crying. Dr diagnosed me with postpartum depression and prescribed me with anti depressants. About a year later the Dr said that my laziness was due to adhd and prescribed another medication for that. I've been on these for about 2-3 years now. We just found out that I'm pregnant with our second child so I stopped taking the medication right away but something isn't right...

I haven't left the house in almost 3 weeks. I can work from home but it's supposed to be rare so I'm worried about my job... My poor kid is stuck at home with me and I feel like it's affecting him but no matter how hard I try I can't push myself to leave.. I get dressed and pack everything we both need for the day and then I come up with a reason to stay home. I tried leaving a couple days ago and I kept pulling over to try and convince myself to keep going. I don't feel depressed outside of the hormones and I've had such strong pregnancy fatigue and morning sickness that I've blamed the messy house on them but could that possibly be all it is? Even tired shouldn't I be able to go do things?

Family events, errands, even just checking the mail I can't get the umph to do it. I'd rather lay in bed all day and and watch TV or game.