Still thinking about him 6 months after breakup

Okay ladies this might be a long one but stay with me I’m about to tell you about the most amazing 10 months of my life, yeah 10 months isn’t a lot but this guy did something to me.

I met this guy in December 2018, have you ever just looked at someone and something just clicked ? I’m talking he kissed me I got goose bumps and there was fireworks the lot. So we started to see more of each other.

We used to go walking and talking for hours, he took me to the beach because I missed the feel of sand in between my toes he accepted me for all my faults, we spent endless nights talking to each other, he accepted my daughter as his own. We started to act like a little family and I didn’t even see it happening until it did. I used to go to sleep with a massive smile on my face. He told me he loved me and he got me a promise ring he sent me flowers on my first day back after maternity leave. He took me to so many places I’d never been, I felt like I was on a high when I was around him. He used to send me so many love songs and little messages. He was literally my sun, I’ve never connected with someone so well.

One day it ended so abruptly i had to leave work, I couldn’t stop crying I had no idea what was going on. My whole world had just come crashing down. The boy who loved me was telling me things like he had never loved me, that I was just a thing after his ex even tho they spilt up years ago. He blocked me on everything. Then one day I notice on snap chat an old account of his was looking at my story when I confronted him about it he said he wondered how I was. Why confused me is he told me he didn’t love me? So why check up on me. Anyway I found out 10 days after breaking it off with me he was in a relationship with a girl.

So now here I am left with memories and I literally want to forget about him but I can’t. I’ve tried everything I think about him every day even when I don’t want to and I’m still Hearst broken why can’t I just get over him ? Sorry ladies I just needed to get it off my chest