Getting hopes up?

Don’t know if I’m just being super hopeful. But ttc and af seems to be tormenting me. I usually have a cycle between 34/38 days. I’m currently on cycle day 44.

However we havnt bd’d since my last period. This month we struggled around ovulation :(

The only way I could be pregnant is if we were successful on a previous cycle but I still had a period :s (and it was a normal period, not just spotting)

In the last 12 months my cycle has been long twice (once 41 and once 48)

Can anybody give me any advise? I’m waiting as long as I can bare before I do a test. X