I'm so tired of trying to weigh my options with crying it out. Im fucking tired. I'm losing my mind and with every time my baby wakes up I just get more and more frustrated and angry. He goes to bed 3 hours before me and wakes up an average of 5 times before I even go to bed. Not to mention allllll night long. I literally dont sleep. I've tried everything except crying it out. We have a strict bedtime ritual and everything. I dont want my baby to not think I'm not coming when he needs me and I don't want him to have psychological damage. I just dont know what's more important anymore. I dont know what to do. I'm fucking tired. I keep thinking in another month it will get better. That month comes and I'm still not sleeping. I dont want to feel guilty for doing something I know will help me but will potentially damage my kid because let's be real the research is contradictory and theres no way to know what's right. I'm all about putting my kids needs above my own and sacrificing for them but I just want to be selfish and do this for me without feeling like shit.