Heartbroken 😢😢

I suffered a miscarriage last August. My husband and I have started TTC again but nothing so far. His cousin has just announced that she is pregnant again (unplanned) with her 3rd child. When I found out I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach and tore my whole world apart 😢 I feel angry, upset and of course jealous. I feel really guilty and like a horrible person for feeling this way but I can't help it.

Is anyone else in the same situation? Any advice on how to deal with this?