Is love real

You know after getting your heart broken, you always tell yourself..

I'll never do this again!

But this time I think it's a real thing.

I gave my husband kids, I was so nice, I took care of him when he was sick, I put up with his abuse and it seems in every part of my life I've always tried and he just never did.. its soooooo much more

And I got threw to the side like trash

Its like..

What more can I do?

I don't want anything with another person after this

They always say you'll find your soulmate or your forever man is out there..

But are they?

Really?

Now I don't even want him anymore

I'm so done with people

What even is love

Why do I feel it so deeply and no one can reciprocate it?