I seen something on here just the other day there under a post. Jist of the story is that she said it's better for babies development for mother to stay at home.

Now, this is where it's bothering me.

I work, a lot. 3 to 4 nights a week in a mental health hospital that's been struggling with staffing so this week I had to do 5. Obviously I come home and sleep then straight back off to work so there is day I'm seeing my baby for like 3 hours.

I had to go back to work at 6.5 months as due to illness I couldn't work and my landlord decided to sell her flat giving us a few weeks noticing then we had to do a quick move and totally rip the new house apart and redecorate it was so bad so ended up in a bit debt - that's why I'm working so much. So we are out of debt and can live stress free and so lots of activities.

After giving birth, there was more illness to do with labour (infection in the womb was one insistent, bleeding a lot was another, clots - so on and so fourth) that landed me in hospital a fair few times for a good few days so he's stayed at Grandma's a few times over night aswell. One of the times was for four days. Which has been persistent and someone I need help with childcare so he stays over a night so I can sleep during the day as sometimes doing three nightshifts in a row - I have to sleep.

Ever since I've seen that post, I have obsessed about it. I'm so scared I've ruined him or he doesn't know me as much or doesn't really have a bond with me. I love him so much and I'm really trying my hardest to do everything possible to ensure he has the best life possible without having money worries.

I know this is long but I'm so worried.