Struggling

TW!!!

I was 14 weeks when my little boy’s heart stopped beating. At 12 weeks they told us the baby had a chance of Down syndrome and I posted on this app asking for support and I was judged because “how dare I ask for support! Down syndrome doesn’t mean unhealthy” well my baby was unhealthy. He had Down syndrome and his little head was completely covered in fluids. Had he made it, the doctor said there would be many birth defects and the health issues would be endless. I had a d&c on feb 6th. They told me to wait a cycle or two to try again and I want to have another child so bad but I am SO scared to go through this again.

I finally stopped spotting, I don’t feel any pain, and I know we can try again after I get my period but I can’t help but stress about it. I keep thinking about my age (34) and how much harder it will become as the years go by. I don’t want to waste any more time but I am so scared. We have a healthy 2 year old little girl and deep down we know we can give her siblings but the fear is consuming me. Any one else has gone through something similar?