Struggling again

I went into the hospital last month for a mental health crisis got put on meds started to feel okay. I don't want to say better because they take that as okay you're cured and I'm definitely not , and I'm regretting telling my doctor I feel better I should have just told her I feel okay because now I feel absolutely horrible and that's in a matter of what two or three weeks. Starting to feel like I want to go back in the hospital but that would just uproot my life and affect too many people. I don't know what to do. I don't want to keep suffering