We’ve been trying to have a baby. Constantly on our minds, I wake up and think about a baby and go to sleep thinking about a baby. My period was supposed to be the 17th of this month, today is the 27th and I finally to a test. It came back negative. My heart shattered. We’ve tried the hormone drops that are supposed to work magic. We tried the pre-seed lube to help sperm travel. But that stupid test came back negative. I hate that stupid test. I did the ovulation test I WAS fertile. But because of that stupid endometriosis hating my body she wants to play jokes on me. It’s so hard not to give up. I just want to throw my hands up and say I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. My husband has a child with his ex wife and it’s a constant reminder that IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I’m so tired. I’m so tired of crying. I’m so tired of getting that negative test. I’m so tired of hurting. Im just tired.