How do you continue

I had a mmc , my baby lost it’s heartbreaking at 8w5d.

I miscarried naturally on Saturday at 11w3d. I can’t stop crying!

I am angry

I am afraid

I feel guilty

Useless

Worthless!

I hate my body for allowing my baby to die !

I hate myself for being excited at the fact that i am pregnant!

I just can’t even stop thinking about it !

I never done anything wrong in life, i never harmed anyone. Why did I deserve this 😔

Will it get better if so when ?