Hi, I could do with a sounding board from other mums who have gone through something similar. Some background, I'm 35 wks pregnant with first baby (3 previous miscarriages). Ive had depression for 10 years but off any medication since I've been pregnant. I've been managing my mental health reasonably well most of my pregnancy but in the last month onwards I feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm crying all the time, exhausted, having repetitive negative thoughts, I am insecure in my marriage and as of last night accused my husband of cheating with zero evidence just a feeling. I'm also struggling mentally with the changes in my body, specifically the pain, lack of mobility and tiredness. I'm worried that I'm going to lose my husband, resent my child or do something much worse to end this. I've spoken to my midwife and have been referred for a psych appointment but it's not for a month and I'm reluctant to go back on meds. I'm still at work although that's becoming increasingly hard to do.

Is there anything I can be doing to help myself in the interim so I don't get worse? I feel if I finish work earlier I'm admitting defeat but seriously considering it. I just feel alone and all the help I see is geared towards post natal and not pre.

Please help xx