Ami being entitled

When you suffer with depression and suffering with suicidal mentality but keeping it held together for your kids but may I add easily triggered due to ptsd, but then are sent self harm images and wondering why they never got to keep there kids when we are mentally the same. I agree we are mentally the same but I stopped cutting for my family and try everything to keep my mind busy. You smoke drugs live in squalla and self harm still on reg and threaten people with it almost everyday and not try using the resources available THEN wonder why your child doesn't live with you anymore. Please seek help for you, your family and your child but please stop blaming others, threatening and triggering other mental health survives. I'm sorry but iv tried helping often but it's gotten to point your sharing un censored slit wrist and not thinking of the people who tried to help who are suffering too (we been through exact same if not few minor differences) I am fed up and recently having to keep it together on the loss of my babies who passed on a year ago. But then sending me in pm the images along with posting on your Facebook that you have no regrets and if we hate self harm then we should block you. I won't block you as I still care and worry about you but I'm holding myself together by sheer will and weak thread and your not keeping that in mind. I'm sorry I sound entitled but I just need to vent